Have you ever found a place so familiar yet so forgotten to you that it's like taking a step back in time and the memories come flooding back?
I found that place for me this wkend. I'm a my Ma's house out in the country and whilst our movie was intereuped by a caller I slipped out back to check out that old swing that I use to visit so often. Running down the now grassy path, down the sloping yard, skipping over roots and ducking under new low hanging branches, down to the swing set built by my Dad between two old pine trees hanging from a 2x4 bolted tween the two - built to last many a gandchild. An old tire rubber seat and a plank of wood have now been long replaced by two plastic seats and the old rusty chains have danced their last for now new shiney silver chain hang and only in arms reach yellow rubbery chain covers to protect one's hands from blisters. bahahaha! oh my hand use to be covered in blisters and calused so! But is it funny?
With a smile I sit and think to myself - Yeah, good thing for this new stuff it won't hurt so bad.
But as I sit one memory after another seemed to float by but then No! Can it be? Am I really that little girl? My hands are soft now, can't you see? I'm in a dream! I must be. I remember that sky, these outlines like that image in the mirror, I know those fears, the dreams, the dares of a little frighten girl. Is it okay to go back inside yet? I don't want to ...but - the past is past a new time has come. Yes, little girl, I still remember the hurts and confusion, the wants and desires, the prayers the tears, yeah, I remember. But the God that you prayed to, the God that has loved you in these last years is the same God who protected you and gave you those prayers to begin with. He was watching over you all this time. You still have far to go but you still have hope and it's even bigger now. You have a new family in Christ. God is your loving Daddy. Those nights were deep, dark and tragic, but joy comes in the morning. There's more to life in Christ then everything you ever dreamed, more to dreams then you know, more to friends and the Bible and church then you ever thought or could imagine and it all starts with Jesus. It all starts with this big God who loves you. Who really loves you, and always has. Even on the darkest most painful days, God loves ...
and puts the lonely in families.
I found that place for me this wkend. I'm a my Ma's house out in the country and whilst our movie was intereuped by a caller I slipped out back to check out that old swing that I use to visit so often. Running down the now grassy path, down the sloping yard, skipping over roots and ducking under new low hanging branches, down to the swing set built by my Dad between two old pine trees hanging from a 2x4 bolted tween the two - built to last many a gandchild. An old tire rubber seat and a plank of wood have now been long replaced by two plastic seats and the old rusty chains have danced their last for now new shiney silver chain hang and only in arms reach yellow rubbery chain covers to protect one's hands from blisters. bahahaha! oh my hand use to be covered in blisters and calused so! But is it funny?
With a smile I sit and think to myself - Yeah, good thing for this new stuff it won't hurt so bad.
But as I sit one memory after another seemed to float by but then No! Can it be? Am I really that little girl? My hands are soft now, can't you see? I'm in a dream! I must be. I remember that sky, these outlines like that image in the mirror, I know those fears, the dreams, the dares of a little frighten girl. Is it okay to go back inside yet? I don't want to ...but - the past is past a new time has come. Yes, little girl, I still remember the hurts and confusion, the wants and desires, the prayers the tears, yeah, I remember. But the God that you prayed to, the God that has loved you in these last years is the same God who protected you and gave you those prayers to begin with. He was watching over you all this time. You still have far to go but you still have hope and it's even bigger now. You have a new family in Christ. God is your loving Daddy. Those nights were deep, dark and tragic, but joy comes in the morning. There's more to life in Christ then everything you ever dreamed, more to dreams then you know, more to friends and the Bible and church then you ever thought or could imagine and it all starts with Jesus. It all starts with this big God who loves you. Who really loves you, and always has. Even on the darkest most painful days, God loves ...
and puts the lonely in families.
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