God's been teaching me alot in the last two weeks. it's been painful. i stayed home from work today due to illness and honestly just cried like three times. once because my department is being downsized from 23 postions to 10... my company isn't doing well. it's like telling someone "one of your steady friends has cancer and they will die soon" coupled with you won't see half of your friends on a daily basics anymore.
ouch.
and my uncle is in ICU in a different state, with his kidney failing and lungs not working on there own. I might not know the man real well, but he has always been able to make me laugh and encourage me when I saw him. Baba God please heal him.
and the third time? there's just a lot going on, throw a bad cold in on top of hard things.
I have been thinking a lot about God this last week an a half, and a friend asked is God good? can He really be trusted when thing are hard, when life is painful? Is Jesus who He says He is?
I was thinking about those questions today... I decided that
You know what? If God/Jesus isn't real then I completely would rather believe this lie then any other out there! Because of Jesus I have a family. I know now because of Jesus what family is suppose to act like. Man. I had dark voices that audibly spoke to me from i don't know when to August 2013 when In Jesus' Name they left. If Jesus is a lie then hands down this is the best hoax I've ever been a part of and I'm gonna keep being crazy about it because its the only crazy religious thing out there that is motivated by love.
My life currently feel rough and I've been cryin a lot in the last weeks but, Jesus is enough. He knows what He is doing. I fail Him every day by not making Him my first and my all. But because of Him I am justified. In Christ Jesus through His blood God has adopted me as His daughter. I'm set for life. for sure.
If anyone wants to tell me I'm believing a lie, go for it. My lie is more powerful and more durable then your lie. all the bets will be in when Jesus comes back.
ouch.
and my uncle is in ICU in a different state, with his kidney failing and lungs not working on there own. I might not know the man real well, but he has always been able to make me laugh and encourage me when I saw him. Baba God please heal him.
and the third time? there's just a lot going on, throw a bad cold in on top of hard things.
I have been thinking a lot about God this last week an a half, and a friend asked is God good? can He really be trusted when thing are hard, when life is painful? Is Jesus who He says He is?
I was thinking about those questions today... I decided that
You know what? If God/Jesus isn't real then I completely would rather believe this lie then any other out there! Because of Jesus I have a family. I know now because of Jesus what family is suppose to act like. Man. I had dark voices that audibly spoke to me from i don't know when to August 2013 when In Jesus' Name they left. If Jesus is a lie then hands down this is the best hoax I've ever been a part of and I'm gonna keep being crazy about it because its the only crazy religious thing out there that is motivated by love.
My life currently feel rough and I've been cryin a lot in the last weeks but, Jesus is enough. He knows what He is doing. I fail Him every day by not making Him my first and my all. But because of Him I am justified. In Christ Jesus through His blood God has adopted me as His daughter. I'm set for life. for sure.
If anyone wants to tell me I'm believing a lie, go for it. My lie is more powerful and more durable then your lie. all the bets will be in when Jesus comes back.
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