Do you have have one of those people enter into your day that juuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuust irritates you?
I went to a christian book store today on lunch and I knew - kinda - that I was walking into an annoying situation because there's this cashier who's really talkative and reeeeeally really slow at ringing up your order that works there. So I was all relived to walk in and learn that even though that lady still works there, there's a new guy too. Great! May he'll ring me up!
No, sadly no. As she got going into a story about how clever she was with her niece in her soft fast past voice my impatience started building in my throat. I really wanted to scream at her Lady, I'm on lunch break. I have 15 minutes until I need to be sitting back in my cubical but you with your story - that I don't care about - and you're one finger typing with five seconds at least between to find the new keys....! Gaaaauuuuuuuuuuuuh! Lady you're driving me insane! For real! Stop talking and finish the job!
When I finally got to walk out to my car, I found my other side scolding me.
Really, Vicki, really? Since when did you not ann oy God? How come you're the great judge today?
Shut up! I don't have be all loving right now! Let me simmer in my anger, I don't have to be a sweet nice Christian ALL the time!
You know this is going to ruin your day if you let yourself "simmer".
I don't care! I'll cry and confess tomorrow! Some people just deserve a good yelling!
You really want to simmer on this for the next four hours?
No! I'll just think about something else. ...
Side note... in recent days when I go off in the daydream land I catch myself and to me to "Enjoy these moments" because I only get them once and the only place I really have to be right now is here.
So I tried to tell myself "Enjoy these moments" which turned into a prayer
Jesus, I'm NOT enjoying these moments! In fact I don't like them.
Which turned me toward Jesus... irritations somehow become less big when you tell Jesus about them.
I'd bought a 365 days of Prayer for Women with devotionals written by women like Elisabeth Elliot, Elizabeth George, and Beth Moore. I had no idea of that when I picked up the book... I was just drawn to it and am so delighted to have it.
It wasn't my most favorite lunch break episode ever but Dada reminded me that I'm a sinner, and totally humbled me with the prayer for today. From Proverbs 16:23
E. Elliott talked about words can heal or words can destroy. Words can help or harm. Ouch! If only I could train my mind to heal and help instead of tearing down and destroying others.
I went to a christian book store today on lunch and I knew - kinda - that I was walking into an annoying situation because there's this cashier who's really talkative and reeeeeally really slow at ringing up your order that works there. So I was all relived to walk in and learn that even though that lady still works there, there's a new guy too. Great! May he'll ring me up!
No, sadly no. As she got going into a story about how clever she was with her niece in her soft fast past voice my impatience started building in my throat. I really wanted to scream at her Lady, I'm on lunch break. I have 15 minutes until I need to be sitting back in my cubical but you with your story - that I don't care about - and you're one finger typing with five seconds at least between to find the new keys....! Gaaaauuuuuuuuuuuuh! Lady you're driving me insane! For real! Stop talking and finish the job!
When I finally got to walk out to my car, I found my other side scolding me.
Really, Vicki, really? Since when did you not ann oy God? How come you're the great judge today?
Shut up! I don't have be all loving right now! Let me simmer in my anger, I don't have to be a sweet nice Christian ALL the time!
You know this is going to ruin your day if you let yourself "simmer".
I don't care! I'll cry and confess tomorrow! Some people just deserve a good yelling!
You really want to simmer on this for the next four hours?
No! I'll just think about something else. ...
Side note... in recent days when I go off in the daydream land I catch myself and to me to "Enjoy these moments" because I only get them once and the only place I really have to be right now is here.
So I tried to tell myself "Enjoy these moments" which turned into a prayer
Jesus, I'm NOT enjoying these moments! In fact I don't like them.
Which turned me toward Jesus... irritations somehow become less big when you tell Jesus about them.
I'd bought a 365 days of Prayer for Women with devotionals written by women like Elisabeth Elliot, Elizabeth George, and Beth Moore. I had no idea of that when I picked up the book... I was just drawn to it and am so delighted to have it.
It wasn't my most favorite lunch break episode ever but Dada reminded me that I'm a sinner, and totally humbled me with the prayer for today. From Proverbs 16:23
E. Elliott talked about words can heal or words can destroy. Words can help or harm. Ouch! If only I could train my mind to heal and help instead of tearing down and destroying others.
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