Need for Security

     At the end of the day what have I been holding onto for security?

A new job? Money? A husband? Really? If I get any of these things will I be more content? Getting out of debt last year has proved to me that I am a poor manger of money; unless I have solid consequences saving is not my strong suit!  More money in my account and being able to buy whatever whenever hasn't really made me more happy.

I was thinking at the end of yesterday, God wants my heart. So then if God wants my heart and He wants to be my security. Then what is all this other stuff?

If I am poor is God not rich enough? Can He not provide well enough? Did He not provide a North Face fleece to me for $5 a few years back? Every time I've prayed for an item He gives and gives name brands, cheaply. How is He not the best provider?

If I am weak and my body is broken is He not my strength? Can He not hold me through again like when I was a runner and needed to pee? Can He not heal my heart again like He did hundreds of times in Recovery and in these last 5 months?

If I am single for life can He not be my comfort? Is God not a deep and true friend to me? I may not ever have sex, but can God not hold me together and hold me steady in Him? Can He not give me the means to get house hold things accomplished without a man? Has He not given me a family I can ask for help from? Can He not satisfy you, Vicki?

 

Even youths grow tired and weary and young men stumble and fall but those who wait on the Lord will renew their strength. Isaiah40:31 ...Daddy God help me wait on Your timing in my life and worries. Renew my strength, please Dada!