Song from Frozen

So I've been listening to this song from Disney's movie Frozen "For the First Time in Forever"... I know somebody out there probably has already said this... But I just can't help think about Jesus and living life with Him and without Him when I hear this song.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Y-eUjFm8qXI

Anna's ready to work through the freezing together in a loving relationship ...like Jesus family works through life together. No matter how hard, broken, and gross it can be. Because of Jesus' death on the cross He reconciles us to Himself and then to each other. In Christ there is family and a way to move forward when the chips are down.

Elisa believes she can happily make it on her own, that living this way won't hurt anybody... but isn't it true that when we live in our own little bubble we don't see how our selfishness is hurting others? Isn't it true that when you have a gift and you hide it you are hindering helpfulness to others? Others will miss out on the great gift you have.
Also she's living in fear, which isolates, but that's the only way she can see to live.
dun-da-daaaaaaaaaa! Jesus needed! Family needed to share Jesus... "how will they hear unless someone preaches to them?" Romans something.

just some thoughts.

Adoring Him and His Joy

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ea-uQFPcvaM&list=FL34tlWAYCV1UNmuMqNRFLVA

you know this song?

I've found that it brings me back to Jesus and God's love for me. The idea that all He ever wants is my heart makes me at ease. makes me giggle like a little crushing girl. makes me adore Christ. the moments when i remember that He wants my heart its easier to obey and follow Jesus. it's a lot to follow some one you adore and want to be like. 

another thing i've found is that when i ask how can i serve here where i am it brings me joy and energy to be present and serve. I haven't gotten to a place where i remember to live for others and Jesus on the daily or constantly but maybe one day i'll be better at it. right now I'm really selfish and unconcerned about how others feel. its disgusting to me but i keep trying to do it on my own. And God is faithful to show me i can't change myself, i need help to be loving and servant hearted. I need a Savior to give me a serving and loving spirit. 

This summer I went to see one of my sisters on the journey there i was adoring Baba God - i love road trips, I love looking up at the big blue sky and clouds, i love seeing new things. I love the new perspectives to my life a different place brings. I learned on that trip that obeying Jesus without fighting Him brings growth too, before hand I'd only seen me grow from mistakes, sins and fighting Him. I took the attitude of serving my sister while being a house guest and it just made my visit really wonderful. The thing is that when I come back home its easy to forget to live like I do when I live... you know its like going to camp and being on a "mountain high".  

Lil' Goose Stories

I've recently started writing stories about a goose that lives on a farm and learns the gospel in every story. so in case you miss reading Vicki blogs... I'm sorry. I'll probably get back to it sometime. But i'm enjoying writing short stories for now. I'm dreaming real big and hoping one day they will be published... however, I don't know how that will pan out. Haven't counted the costs there. We'll see! Mean time I love writing and I love the gospel! God is so amazing!

hands down

God's been teaching me alot in the last two weeks. it's been painful. i stayed home from work today due to illness and honestly just cried like three times. once because my department is being downsized from 23 postions to 10... my company isn't doing well. it's like telling someone "one of your steady friends has cancer and they will die soon" coupled with you won't see half of your friends on a daily basics anymore.
ouch.
and my uncle is in ICU in a different state, with his kidney failing and lungs not working on there own. I might not know the man real well, but he has always been able to make me laugh and encourage me when I saw him. Baba God please heal him.
and the third time? there's just a lot going on, throw a bad cold in on top of hard things.
I have been thinking a lot about God this last week an a half, and a friend asked is God good? can He really be trusted when thing are hard, when life is painful? Is Jesus who He says He is?
I was thinking about those questions today... I decided that
You know what? If God/Jesus isn't real then I completely would rather believe this lie then any other out there! Because of Jesus I have a family. I know now because of Jesus what family is suppose to act like. Man. I had dark voices that audibly spoke to me from i don't know when to August 2013 when In Jesus' Name they left. If Jesus is a lie then hands down this is the best hoax I've ever been a part of and I'm gonna keep being crazy about it because its the only crazy religious thing out there that is motivated by love.
My life currently feel rough and I've been cryin a lot in the last weeks but, Jesus is enough. He knows what He is doing. I fail Him every day by not making Him my first and my all. But because of Him I am justified. In Christ Jesus through His blood God has adopted me as His daughter. I'm set for life. for sure.

If anyone wants to tell me I'm believing a lie, go for it. My lie is more powerful and more durable then your lie. all the bets will be in when Jesus comes back.

When I say "I love you" & A little bit of purpose

Hello my readers,
I've had a blog post idea in my head for a week and just didn't write. I couldn't figure how to write these things to make sense. But Lord willing my two thoughts will make sense. So here's the first...
When I say "I love you",
 I don't mean to make you squirm. :) I've found myself saying "I love you" and "I love you Jesus fam" a lot in the last few months and have noticed that there are certain people that tend to squirm at such proclamations like I shouldn't say such things when male beings are around. Well friends let me just explain what I mean and don't mean. I don't mean romantic love. I mean I want the best for you! I want Jesus for you. If I see you are wrong I will confront you, and expect the same in return. I mean that no matter what I'll be ready to stick to ya as my Jesus family, the way that Jesus has/does love me. Ready to give grace and forgiveness. Ready to walk through life with you.
I have been blessed to come from a broken home where family wasn't a good thing. Blessed? Yes, blessed. Because my home life was rough the love of Jesus and His family is so beautiful and warm to me. I want to pass on the love that I encounter in Christ with all those around me. My past helps me adore what God has given me in Jesus family. When I yell out an "I love you" I'm telling you I'm ready to stick with you through thick and thin like Jesus does with me.

A Little Bit of Purpose
One morning on the way to work someone on the radio was asking "what do you want people to say about you when you die?" Maybe that you were the most gracious person, or a willing servant. Then this idea formed... I wonder. I wonder if the gospel can be put on display loud and clear by being single and living in gospel community. By living real and honest with your community like they are blood family. We are the family of God so, lets just totally act like it! There's a Psalm (68:5-6) that says God puts the lonely in families. When I think about Midtown and Mill City, I can't help but smile. Yep! I'm single and yep I have prayed and prayed for companionship. But something so sweet that I have learned in the past years is that I am surrounded by a loving and caring family. My life doesn't look the way I thought I wanted it to, but I'm not lonely. I have a family that knows me deeply and still loves me! I have a place to be honest when I struggle but seriously y'all! I'm thinking there is a lot of purpose for singles in the body of Christ and it's just as beautiful as marriage.

Did that make sense?

mumblings after a sad movie

broken people
watching broken people
hoping someone will stop
stop and say hello
that will turn to an 'I love you'

will they stay together
all the way?
see-saw... watch the broken see-saw
tipping in the cracking dawn
watch the swirling orange leafs fall

together
things they fall apart
together.
do broken people
come together to mend the dark?

will we see
one day be made whole?
will be golden rays for me
for you
will you see
that things won't always be
happy.

we're living in a broken world
things won't shine all the time
hearts come and they crash down
and sometimes kill the start

but I -- I am sure there must be
SUNSHINE
sunshine a mist the clouds of night.

though tears fall
though hearts break
though wind blows
and shadows turn to nightmares
that tear and break us down.

though sin should take a knife
though ill will strike a fight
and evil kills at night
there's something more
something stronger then ten thousand broken throngs

There's love
Love comes quickly
love is kind
and honest
holds the broken
mending people
healing, healing, healing

oooooh
But wait a minute dear
don't get so fluttered
love isn't what you think
it's not romance
that will make you dance
you'll see

it's steady faithful love
it's tougher then all evil nights
it'll set you straight when you're wrong
though you might not like that word or song
I promise from my core
that love that's true
and love that's real
from Christ alone
can heal that broken steal

He brings the warfront to the light
and shatters bonds which hold us fast
but my dear  we still live in broken homes
til His light
flashes one last time
and trumpets calls this family home.
so go
go to the broken
open up the dawn of love that lasts
cry when it's sad
be real
and don't forget
you are from a broken past
but He has made you well
to this you can attest

He knows the plans

Today was a day. Whew, so glad it's over. In the last crush i had (yep, you know I got talk about boys some), God taught me soooooooo much. It was a rough crush to say the least but I don't know how else God would have taught me everything He did without all the strangeness off it. To say at least a little more there were some spirits at work that were not of Jesus parading around acting like God (according to 2 Corinthians 10 or 11 they do that, don't they).  But through it all God was at a deep work in my heart, growing me in trust of Him and changing a lot of my perspectives on things. One of the things that changed was doubt. When I met said crush - will call him Frank - all of a sudden I realized that even if Frank wasn't my future husband and things didn't go as I hoped God knew exactly what was going on. Even though I thought maybe Frank was "the one", I became sure that God loves me and knows the plans.
So I don't need to go around day dreaming about the future and how it will work out and worrying "OMG, i'm gonna mess it up if I don't plan the perfect things to say to every possible thing that could happen." God's got my life. I am secure in Him. I can rest in peace about the future. The Lord holds it.

Today though I started thinking about another guy (we'll call him Buddy), so i was thinkin about Buddy tooooo much and praying that I would stop it already! Haven't I had enough crushes to last the rest of my life?
Maybe so. So then this afternoon I was thinking what can I think about instead? I have Hosea 2:14-18 up in my cubical and read 2 Corinthians 10 and 11 this morning and something in chapter 11:2-3 Paul is talking to the church saying he wanted to be able to present them to their Husband, present this bride pure to her husband but he wouldn't be able to because she's been deceived like Eve.
sounds a lot like me doesn't it? I start thinkin about a boy thinking that if I daydream about him my aches and pains will disappear. Or that I can do this life on my own without Jesus, all the while running to my idols for comfort, healing, and dreams to be completed. When its just a deception. If I were to marry my life doesn't just become "happily ever after" I keep living with struggles with a man until Jesus comes back or takes me home. Its a deception that I believe that all my pains will be healed by ignoring it.
It's a lie that I can make my life better by daydreaming pain away, because in so doing I lack healing and miss out on what the Lord has for me to do and be today.

I remembered that belief I came to while crushing on Frank that God absolutely, 100% knows the plans He has for me. Plans to prosper and not to harm. God loves me and has His glory in mind. Lord willing Buddy and Frank will be friends of mine. And in the Name of Jesus I will trust Him with the future even when it hurts and I don't understand or find it easier to worry. (sigh) Jesus help!