A Place to Hang My Soul (a really late 5/4/13 post)

Daddy! i don't want to get married ever because You and me will change!

Future Man will sleep right next to me... no more crying myself to sleep in Jesus' arms. ("Hey man! You are not Jesus/Holy Spirit! You can't heal and hold me deep!")

Why can't You keep him to Yourself, Lord? Aren't ya'll friends? Wouldn't You like him best single? I like me and You better as me single!

I'm finding the hardest times are the things that I'm not wanting to share with Future Man. I don't want him between You and me!

When I just want to be with You, Daddy, will he let me?

But wait! Hebrews 13:7 DOES say that Jesus Christ is the same yesterday, today, and forever. Lord, here are my hands. I still feel sad about possible marriage but it will be me that will change not You. Any change to end You and Me will be my lack of trust... any good change in me and Our relationship will be You at work.

I don't want to be single forever, but I've found You a sweet comfort when I'm aching the most. You are the God that hears me.

You are my refuge and strength, my ever present help in time of need. I don't want You to leave. I don't want Us to change even though I've prayed for a future man. 

My comfort, my strength, my pursuer, the One who knows best how to romance me, my love and my friend is my Lord God Almighty, Jesus makes me giggle, my refreshment, my laughter, my rest, my shoulder to cry on, my wisdom and guidance, my cooking Buddy, my most intimate confidant, my alarm clock, my teacher an challenger, the One who holds me together, my closet/hiding place, my always presnt friend, my loving/listening Daddy, my protector-provider You are! And You still will be for me even if I wed.

If anything I'll have more to talk with my Dear You about.

You are where I hang my soul

You are who I wake up to

You know my thoughts, words and deeds

You convict me of sin

and set me straight

You will never leave or forsake me

You keep me close and pursue me back when I leave.

You are the One place I can hide

The one place I can fall asleep knowing I am still within Your hands!

My place to hang my soul.