I Need A Man To ____________

Over the last five or six years I've slowly seen a pattern in my life that the Lord has challenged and grown my heart in. And that is in the "I need a man to do such and such for me" statement. 

Like:

I'm afraid to make this decision about car repairs on my own! I just need a man to tell me what to do!

I can't open this sauce jar! I need a strong man to open this!

(Before taking a budgeting class...) I need a man to manage my money!

I need a man to go talk to that creep!

So basically I "need" a body guard/accountant/handy man/adviser. 

There have been so many times that I've straight up screamed at God "This isn't fair! I need husband! I can't do this life thing on my own!" I remember at least two times crumpling on the kitchen floor with an unopened sauce jar just weeping "Lord? I can't get this jar opened! I'm so mad and frustrated! Wouldn't me having a husband just fix this ok? I'm so worried, this food was suppose to be several meals this week. What am I going to eat? I don't have enough money to go buy more! I just need a man!"

On every occasion the Lord has provided. On every occasion Holy Spirit has convicted me that I need to come to Him with what is to big for me. With those sauce jars? I've started praying God give me Your strength  to open this jar. And then He did! And He still does. When I was afraid to make big financial decisions He gave me wisdom. With creeps He has been my protection.  Daddy God has taught me to run sooner to Himself then human help, that God is my salvation, and my help.

In my distress I called to the Lord;

    he answered me and set me free.

The Lord is with me, I will not be afraid;

    what can anyone do to me?

It is the Lord who helps me,

    and I will see my enemies defeated.

It is better to trust in the Lord

    than to depend on people.

It is better to trust in the Lord

    than to depend on human leaders.

...

The Lord makes me powerful and strong;

    he has saved me.

...

I praise you, Lord, because you heard me,

    because you have given me victory.

Psalms 118:5-9&14&21

P.S. Today after having bought a water and trying to follow my friends around in a crowd I was having difficulty opening the bottle. My first thought "Lord! I need a man!" I stopped. Looked down at the bottle and smiled "No Lord, I need Jesus first and some strength here would be helpful if Ya don't mind." Catching up with my friends I tried again and praise Jesus the lid came off after praying about it! I still struggle because I'm still a sinner but the Lord is my strength and salvation! Praying that you trust His help with all your details.