things that remind me of God

Birds - their wings remind me that God has Healing Wings. He heals my brokeness. God is my protector
Rainbows - the flood... God keeps His promises. all of them!
Rain - Elijah... so i was recently reading 1&2Kings about the prophet praying for fire and then telling king Ahab that  there would be rain even though the cloud was only as large as a man's fist. later in the wk that i read that story i was listening to the radio and the announcer said that there was "a small chance of rain, if we saw any rain clouds it wouldn't be much bigger then a man's fist" seriously they said that. and i thought wow. and prayed "God will you please make it rain for me like you did Elijah because you love me?'' that night i was a Starbucks and a massive storm came through. and while everybody else was freaking out i kept thinking "uh, thanks God! this is a mazing! but i didn't mean scare everybody. but thank you!" so now rain reminds me that God loves me. :)

Insecurities and Me

Dear Blogger Land,

     About a month ago one of my trusted friends (and still loved) suggested that I am insecure. I on the other hand had never really thought about it. You know? I mean I heard others talk about it but when I think Vicki Hansen and insecure I think they repel each other. It's more like Vicki Hansen and Scared are friends. Not Vicki Hansen and Insecure are friends. mmm, I just don't know about this idea! But I was thinking these last weeks maybe insecure is just a nice way of saying "I'm scared!" like "blah! scared of men thinkin i'm fat" when i could say in a more no nonsense way "I'm insecure around certain types of men". no, no, no. that just doesn't sit right in my head. sigh. gosh! words! feelings!
    but no really all joking aside i just don't like the word insecure... i don't know. scared sounds more right to me.

in·se·cure

 [in-si-kyoor] Show IPA

–adjective

1.

subject to fears, doubts, etc.; not self-confident or assured: an insecure person.

2.

not confident or certain; uneasy; anxious: He was insecure about the examination.

3.

not secure; exposed or liable to risk, loss, or danger: an insecure stock portfolio.                                                                                                                                                                                                                     like i was sayin'! scared. it's like worry and fear in one word. but aaaaaaaaagh! i just don't want to put that as defining word about me. i'd rather just keep sayin ''i'm scared. i'm shy. i don't know about that. i'm worried." but, but.. OH BUMMER! i don't know. whatev. it doesn't have to define me.. I'm mean really Jesus Christ defines me. but I'm "insecure" about His love for me. I'm not always sure that I'm okay in Him so i start to worry and fear about anything and everything around me. though i must say i don't mind using the word Insecure with the sentence above. so maybe I'll just be scared of things on earth and worried about situations and say that it's all because I'm insecure in Christ. yes. that wraps it up nicely. thank you Blogger land with your fine lush green rolling hills and butterfly's! thank you!