tonight I was reminded that in light of my sin and Who Jesus God is, I'm a whore. I run out on my first Love, my Savior every day and wear a scarlet letter proudly as if it were a good thing.
this weekend I've been struck with Matthew 16:24 "if anyone would come after Me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow Me". In Roman times the cross was a tool of torture. So take up mu torture and follow Jesus?
deny myself my desires for that idol, that comfort.
that rings so true and so right when it comes to my "darling" sin. my constant problem, my constant shame. The sin that I've brought before the Lord so many times before and just begged Him to take it away.
But what if He doesn't? what if this sin, this "darling" sin of mine is my cross? what if this is what i'm called to deny myself and follow? what if this is my reminder again and again of my whoring after a broken useless treasure is the thing that points me back to my deep and real need of a Savior.
But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9
this weekend I've been struck with Matthew 16:24 "if anyone would come after Me, let him deny himself and take up his cross and follow Me". In Roman times the cross was a tool of torture. So take up mu torture and follow Jesus?
deny myself my desires for that idol, that comfort.
that rings so true and so right when it comes to my "darling" sin. my constant problem, my constant shame. The sin that I've brought before the Lord so many times before and just begged Him to take it away.
But what if He doesn't? what if this sin, this "darling" sin of mine is my cross? what if this is what i'm called to deny myself and follow? what if this is my reminder again and again of my whoring after a broken useless treasure is the thing that points me back to my deep and real need of a Savior.
But He said to me, "My grace is sufficient for you, for My power is made perfect in weakness." Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. 2 Corinthians 12:9
While coming home after a party tonight I was grace with some sweet words from a friendship that has grown deeper in the last two years. God has been blessing me so much with this new found friendship in an old relation.
even though i struggle daily to be in love with my first Love, He loves and peruses my heart tenderly.
His convictions are a grace to me. His love overwhelms me to tears. this life on earth i'll live with Him as my Love, my darling, my Savior with many stumbling still to come but this love! this love. i can't wait to get to Heaven and yet i'm so young. i'll wait on You're timing O Lord my God. Spread out You're mighty arms and fill us with Your love and boldness to spread You're fame among the nations. Glory be Yours forever, Amen.
