Been realizing that I crush on boys really fast and often just because he noticed me. The "he noticed me" turns into daydreams that are absolutely ridiculous like "oh he smiled at me, we're so getting married!" or "he liked it that I laughed unexpectedly loud at his joke, we should be a couple hands down, for sure".
Ridiculousness!
Been thinking over the weekend that I bet marriage is difficult because there's the relationship with Jesus to focus on but also you're spouse. Staying focused on Jesus is hard enough! No wonder Paul says if you can remain single do so. With this thoughts I decided not to crush again because I need to focus on Jesus. But then there was another guy being a sweet person again and today I headed straight for "crush on/dwell to much him" land. But then this new thought came... when I dwell in daydream land I say things to men I would never say to their face because it would be to bold, I allow for things in my mind to happen that if done physically I know I can't let Jesus catch me doing so why oh why do I think I can get away with it in thought?
The new thought and challenge of the day: Love Jesus with my mind. If I wouldn't do something physically or in the "out loud voice" because it would break my Saviors heart then I shouldn't be okay with even thinking it. Do I love my Savior enough to stop disrespecting men in my mind? Do I want to please my Savior enough to be pure in mind? Am I ready to be madly in love with my Savior?
Lord, please help! Make me pure in mind. I need so much grace, so much help. Thank You Daddy for already answering.
Lord, please help! Make me pure in mind. I need so much grace, so much help. Thank You Daddy for already answering.
