I just wanted to say that today God convicted me of some major stuff. Some real life sin was revealed and I felt like such an idiot when I saw what I've been doing. It was like God was like "Honey, I love you. There's hope for change in Me from this and if you don't come back your totally an idiot. Come here." God guilt shows you what your doing wrong and at the same time gives you peace so that you can be changed in Him.
Then later in the day I was praying about a situation where I don't know how to love someone because "I never do that" but God pointed out to me that I do "that" it just looks different because I label it differently. Because I hide it better. I may look okay on the outside but on the inside, I'm doing the very same thing I don't know how to deal with... but I do. Because God has already given me the tools I need to walk forward trusting Him. The thing is I need to trust and obey.
Lastly. I went to Water Aerobic's Class tonight after work with my sad face about my idiotiness and learned to laugh at myself once again while running around the pool with strangers. My arms and ab's are so sore! But I'm pretty sure that if I didn't have sore muscles they'd be flabby and that's not healthy. I'm pretty sure that if God didn't convict me of sin I'd be, well, I wouldn't be His. I wouldn't care about anybody and I'd be you know more out of shape in every way. Exercise and convictions are good things... they keep us alive and well.
