Adoring Him and His Joy

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ea-uQFPcvaM&list=FL34tlWAYCV1UNmuMqNRFLVA

you know this song?

I've found that it brings me back to Jesus and God's love for me. The idea that all He ever wants is my heart makes me at ease. makes me giggle like a little crushing girl. makes me adore Christ. the moments when i remember that He wants my heart its easier to obey and follow Jesus. it's a lot to follow some one you adore and want to be like. 

another thing i've found is that when i ask how can i serve here where i am it brings me joy and energy to be present and serve. I haven't gotten to a place where i remember to live for others and Jesus on the daily or constantly but maybe one day i'll be better at it. right now I'm really selfish and unconcerned about how others feel. its disgusting to me but i keep trying to do it on my own. And God is faithful to show me i can't change myself, i need help to be loving and servant hearted. I need a Savior to give me a serving and loving spirit. 

This summer I went to see one of my sisters on the journey there i was adoring Baba God - i love road trips, I love looking up at the big blue sky and clouds, i love seeing new things. I love the new perspectives to my life a different place brings. I learned on that trip that obeying Jesus without fighting Him brings growth too, before hand I'd only seen me grow from mistakes, sins and fighting Him. I took the attitude of serving my sister while being a house guest and it just made my visit really wonderful. The thing is that when I come back home its easy to forget to live like I do when I live... you know its like going to camp and being on a "mountain high".  

Lil' Goose Stories

I've recently started writing stories about a goose that lives on a farm and learns the gospel in every story. so in case you miss reading Vicki blogs... I'm sorry. I'll probably get back to it sometime. But i'm enjoying writing short stories for now. I'm dreaming real big and hoping one day they will be published... however, I don't know how that will pan out. Haven't counted the costs there. We'll see! Mean time I love writing and I love the gospel! God is so amazing!

hands down

God's been teaching me alot in the last two weeks. it's been painful. i stayed home from work today due to illness and honestly just cried like three times. once because my department is being downsized from 23 postions to 10... my company isn't doing well. it's like telling someone "one of your steady friends has cancer and they will die soon" coupled with you won't see half of your friends on a daily basics anymore.
ouch.
and my uncle is in ICU in a different state, with his kidney failing and lungs not working on there own. I might not know the man real well, but he has always been able to make me laugh and encourage me when I saw him. Baba God please heal him.
and the third time? there's just a lot going on, throw a bad cold in on top of hard things.
I have been thinking a lot about God this last week an a half, and a friend asked is God good? can He really be trusted when thing are hard, when life is painful? Is Jesus who He says He is?
I was thinking about those questions today... I decided that
You know what? If God/Jesus isn't real then I completely would rather believe this lie then any other out there! Because of Jesus I have a family. I know now because of Jesus what family is suppose to act like. Man. I had dark voices that audibly spoke to me from i don't know when to August 2013 when In Jesus' Name they left. If Jesus is a lie then hands down this is the best hoax I've ever been a part of and I'm gonna keep being crazy about it because its the only crazy religious thing out there that is motivated by love.
My life currently feel rough and I've been cryin a lot in the last weeks but, Jesus is enough. He knows what He is doing. I fail Him every day by not making Him my first and my all. But because of Him I am justified. In Christ Jesus through His blood God has adopted me as His daughter. I'm set for life. for sure.

If anyone wants to tell me I'm believing a lie, go for it. My lie is more powerful and more durable then your lie. all the bets will be in when Jesus comes back.